Fate is something I often think about, and even more-so now that I am a mother. I read a quote that said “when it is all finished you will discover it was never random.” I think about this a lot — about how every little decision in life affects us in ways we will never see the full extent of. Like a ripple in the water, it goes on and on beyond our comprehension.

I sometimes beg the question, who would I be if things went a different way? Like pieces of my past self are living a life in an alternate universe, a place I will never know but might have if I had chosen differently. And that’s the beauty about life, there truly is no such thing as what might have been. And that somehow brings both comfort and sorrow simultaneously in the midst of where reality lies.

Sometimes our life goes along a path we never anticipated or could have prepared for, in both positive and negative ways. But regardless of the lows, the highs God has waiting in store are worth every trial and every tribulation.

For me, I never knew if I would be a mother. I admired mothers, and thought one day I may be blessed to experience that gift as my mother did before me. But even still, I never knew if that was the path God would have set aside for me. Yet, when I stepped into that role, it felt like it was a place I had always been. Like the alternate versions of me, were never really me at all. Motherhood is an emotional journey like I have never experienced. It is the greatest love I have ever known, and the most beautiful ripple in the ocean of my life

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Hands of Fate